Thursday, June 29, 2006

goodbye tita adit...

... june 23, 2006... friday afternoon... my tito ato called saying that my tita adit was rushed to the hospital... he said, "anak, bmigay na lungs ni tita adit mo... d na mggwan ng praan." Agad-agad nmn akong tumawag sa parents ko at mga kapatid ko... since 4pm to 5pm lng ang visiting hours sa ICU, nagdesisyon kmeng knabukasan na lng ppunta... kinaumagahan, pagsakay nmen ng jeep ppntang EDSA tnawagan ako ulit ni tito ato... bilisan daw nmen dhel 2 oras na lng ang itatagal ni tita adit... silently, nadasal ako na sana maabutan pa nmen c tita adit pra mkapagpaalam kme sa kanya... after an hour, nagtext ako sa tito ko pra sbhng malapit na kme sa Dasma... nagreply sya sken at cnbing wla na c tita adit, twagan ko daw sya... pagkatawag ko sa kanya, umiiyak c tito ato ko... nagflatline na daw c tita, sbe ko cge bblisan n nmen... tnwagan ko nmn tito pops pra alamin ano na nangyari, pnarevive pa daw c tita adit pro ilang oras na lng daw bnbgay... pagdating nmen sa ICU, hndi kme makapasok kc tpos na visiting hours... hnintay nmen dumating ang iba nmeng tita pra makapagpaalam sa doctor... pagkalipas ng ilang minuto, pnayagan n kmeng kausapin c tita adit... isa-isa na kmeng nagpaalam sa kanya... nakakalungkot at very traumatic yng mkita mo mahal mo sa buhay na nakaratay dun, tpos machines na lng at gamot ang bumubuhay sa kanya... hnawakan ko braso ni tita adit, ang lamig na sobra... nagtatalo cla kng sa susunod na magka-arrest c tita adit, dpat pa b nilang iparevive o hayaan na nilang magpahinga c tita? kng ako ttnungin, mahirap maglet go pro kitang kita nmen na nahihirapan c tita adit sa sitwasyon nya... mga 8 ng gabi, pumirma na clang magkakapatid... sa susunod na atakihin c tita, let go na cla... nakakapagod maghintay kc wla tlgang room sa ICU, sa labas lng kme mula hapon hanggan gabi... kya naisipang pumunta sa canteen pra kumain... habang naghihintay, nagkwekwentuhan kme.. nag iiyakan, minsan nagtatawanan... pasado alas-9 na ng gbi kme naghiwa-hiwalay...


...kinabukasan, june 25... nagtext agad ako sa tito ko kng ano na lagay ni tita adit... ok pa c tita, mukhang hinhintay nya ang pagdating ng lola ko... lumipas ang buong maghapon, wala kmeng natanggap ng tawag at text sa tito ko kya nagpasya kmeng matulog... 11:30 PM, kumatok kapatid ko sa kwarto... sbe nya, "ate joi, patay na c tita adit!! sabay sa paglapag ng eroplano nina lola"... nalungkot ako, at tnwagan ko agad c tito ato... sayang, at hindi naabutan ni lola c tita adit... june 26, pumasok ako sa office... bad news agad ang ntanggap ko... umuwi ako agad at nagpalit ng damit pra pumunta sa manila memorial/funeraria paz sa sucat... konti lng ang tao, umidlip muna ako sa family room... nagising na lng ako sa ingay... at ayun, lumabas at nakipagkwentuhan... at nagkuhanan ng picture...

... june 27, syempre pumasok pa rin ako sa office khet late na kme umuwi... antok na antok ako pro ok lng... diretso uwi ako, bihis lng ulit at ayos ng gamit tpos punta na ulet punerarya... ito na ata pinakamakulit na burol na napuntahan ko... puro kwentuhan, tawanan at pikcher-pikcher kme... prang reunion ang nangyari... dumating ang isa kong lola, humahagulgol sya... niyakap sya ng mga kapatid nya... kmeng magpipinsan ay nkangiti sa eksenang yun... umiral ang kakulitan ko... sbe ko sa mga pinsan ko, "bket d tyo mkigulo bago nila silipin c tita?"... sbay-sbay kmeng tumayo at pinalibutan ang mga oldies... d kme makapagbless kya nmn sbe ko, "ok... group hug!!!"... at sumunod nmn ang mkukulit kong pinsan pti mga tita ko... hehehe... gulat n gulat ang mga oldies, umiiyak cla pro kme hagikgikan ng hagikgikan... at simula nun, kuhanan n ng pictures... tawanan na... kulitan... sigawan (tinatakot kc nina iboy at ryan ang mga kids sa family room)... umuwi kme ng 12 midnight...



...june 28, 2006, hindi ako nkapasok... kc hindi ako nagising sa tamang oras at sumasakit ulo ko... pag gising ko, diretso ligo na kme at bihis... libing nga pla ngyn ni tita... pagdating nmen sa punerarya, andmi ng tao... may nagvivideo pa at photographer... isa-isang tinawag mga kamag-anak pra sa picture taking... prang kasal ang dating! syempre d nwala ang kulitan nmeng lahat... nawala lang ang kakulitan nung nagsisimula na ang mass pra kay tita... puro hikbi at pag-iyak na mririnig mo... lalo na nung inihatid nmen sa chapel ang coffin ni tita pra sa cremation.... dito ko naramdaman ang sobrang lungkot... pti c reese, iyak ng iyak... humagulgol ang lahat ng ipinasok na sa crematory area c tita adit... mririnig mo ang sigawan ng mga lola at mga tita ko.. pti mga pinsan at pamangkin ko... ilang oras dn kmeng naghihintay, dhel sa inip nagpikcher-pikcher ulet kme at nagkulitan... ilang minuto p lng ang nakakalipas, niyaya ako ng pinsan ko na tgnan c tita... pumasok kme sa crematory area at bnuksan nila ng konti yng "oven"... kita ko c tita, buto na lng... nagbabaga pa nga yng ribs nya... lumabas na kme pagkatpos ng ilang minuto.. pagkatpos ng ilang oras, tnwag n kme kc tpos na... kta nmeng abo na c tita at pumuputok-putok pa... ilang minuto na lng at tpos na, i-ggrind pa daw kc yun e... makalipas ilang minuto, pagbukas ng bintana ng crematory area, sabay buhos ng malakas na ulan (pti sa chicago bumuhos dn ulan)... natuwa kme, yn kc ang gus2 ni tita adit... ang umulan pra daw malamig... after mkuha ang abo, dumiretso na kme sa max's pra magdinner...

... nakakalungkot ng sobra... sa taong ito, 3 na namamatay sa amin... late last year, namatay c dadang... january, namatay c tito ali... february, nawala sa amin c richard... at itong june, c tita adit nmn... nalungkot ako kc hndi ko man lng nksama ng matagal c tita adit nitong taon na ito... d kc natuloy yng pagbisita nmen sa kanya... nakakalungkot, napuntahan ko sya nung time na hindi ko na sya makausap... pro lamko nmn na masaya na sya ksama lolo ko at c richard... atleast ngyn, wla na syang mararamdamang pain... Tita adit, mamimiss ko yng champorado mo... Ü we love you tita adit....

Sunday, June 25, 2006

wanna hug?



Sunday, June 18, 2006

kapuso discovery

i think it's pretty obvious na i'm a certified kapamilya... i have nothing against the kapuso network, pro i saw this video sa yahoo group nmen and promise, natawa ako sobra.... nkakatawa kc yng lyrics nya, d best!! at ang sayaw, bagay ng bagay sa kanta... nyahahahahaha!!! eto at share ko video at lyrics... wag nyo pigilan ang tawa ha!! eto ang site just incase d nyo mview d2... http://www.youtube.com/v/leW9nn8ZCAM




keys me (kiss me by sixpence none the richer)

keys me... beat it the verdict valeey...
nightlee... v-side the green green grass
swing swing, swing the spinny stef
you vur the shoez
and i will wear the dress
ohhh... keys me
v-neat d milke twalay
leeeeeep me... al-out the moonlit floor
leaf you open hand... strike entebend
end make d parflays dance
sylvimousse is barkley
so keys me...

keys me...
down by da flow can 3 how..
twin vee of funne hungee tay
bring bring, bing yo flower head
will take dachay make on your father's melt
ohhh... keys me...
v-neat d milke twalay
tixt me.. al-out the moonlit floor
leaf your open hand
strike entebend end make d parflays dance
sylvimousse is barkley
so keys me...

ohhh... keys me...
v-neat d milke twalay
leeeeeep me... al-out the moonlit floor
leaf you open hand
strike entebend.. end make d parflays dance
sylvimousse is barkley
so keys me
so keys me...
so keys me...
so keys me.

Saturday, June 17, 2006

ouch!!

pain pain
go away


i am not very good in expressing myself lalo na sa pagsusulat... like what my bro said: wla akong gift pagdting sa journalism... anyway, i still want to share my thoughts... hehehe...

it's been quite a while now since i felt so happy... yng tipong khet may problems ka, nraramdaman mong masaya ka... minsan naiisip ko, tama kya mga decisions na nagawa o gngwa ko? will it lessen the pain that i am feeling right now or will it will make things worst? my family has no idea what im going through right now... my friends thinks that i am doing ok, but i am not. i guess, im just good in hiding those emotions to myself... people sees me as a jolly person... prang wlang problems... always smiling... always laughing... ang di nila alam, yn ang way ko pra makalimutan yng nraramdaman ko... minsan, nag-iisip ako... am i a bad person pra ma-experience ko lahat lahat ng pinagdadaanan ko? nakakarma ba ako? pro bket? ano bang gnwa ko? i just want to make things clear... this is not about my ex and me... i already accepted our fate... we can never be one no matter how hard we try... we're just not meant to be... this is about reese and all the other complications in life... i am not sure if i am doing the right thing pra kay reese... i am not sure if i would be a good mommy kay reese o kng mabbgyan ko sya ng magandang future... i am not sure kng tama yng decision ko na ipakilala at ilapit pa c reese sa daddy nya... what can i do? she will never be his priority... how can i tell her the truth about her daddy? at pano ko ssbhn sa family ko lahat-lahat?

i hate this feeling.... i need a break... i need to be alone... sna khet one day lng, mawala lahat ng alalahanin ko sa buhay... minsan gus2 ko matulog na lng ng 24 hours pra lng mapahinga isip ko... how i wish this pain will go away soon...

Thursday, June 15, 2006

SPO2 Cobra...

where are you
for my cousin richard


...everytime i hear this song it reminds me of my cousin Richard... maybe because this is his favorite song before he left us... it's been 4 months but i still cannot accept the way he died.. so brutal... i know he's watching over us from heaven... i love you so much Richard... i miss you so so much...



[Justin Roman *spoken]
I know you're out there baby
Somewhere...
[Justin]
There's someone out there for me
(I know there's somebody out there)
I know she's waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name?
(Won't somebody tell me her name?)
*This life long search is gon' drive me insane
How does she laugh, how does she cry?
What's the colour of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she, where is she, where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she, who is she?
Who's gonna complete my world?
Where is she, where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she, who is she?
Who's gonna complete my world?
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da
Da da da da da da da
Where are you?
[Natalie]
I'm starin' out at the sky
(I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams?
(I'm right here) Yeah, yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry?
What's the colour of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he, where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?
Where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?
La la la la la la la
La la la la la
La la la la la la la
Where are you?
[Justin]
There's someone out there for me
(There's someone out there for me)
I know she's waiting so patiently
(So patient)
Can you tell me her name?
(Can you tell me his name?)
This life long search is gon' drive me insane
(That's right)
[Natalie]
How does he laugh, how does he cry?
What's the colour of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
[Justin]
Where is she, where is she, where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she, who is she?
Who's gonna completely my world?
[Natalie]
Where is he, where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?
[Together]
La la la la la la la
La la la la la
La la la la la la la
(I know you're out there)
La la la la la la la
La la la la la
La la la la la la la
Where are you?
[Justin*Spoken*]
I'm gonna look all over the world baby
'Cause I know you're out there
And I know it might sound crazy
But I think I love you
[Together]
La la la la la la la
La la la la la
La la la la la la la
(Where are you?)

Monday, June 12, 2006

PBC (patay na bata collection)

... ano ba ang ibig sbhin ng PBC??? pra ba itong PBB as in Pinoy Big Brother??? nope!!!! PBC stands for Patay na Bata Collection... mga pikcher ng mga officemates kong ntutulog while on duty... pde ring pikcher na ntutulog kng saan saan... sayang at hindi lahat ng mga members ng team raptors ay nakuhanan ng moments nila... enewei, eto ang ibang stolen moments ng team ko... kyo, cno ang big 4 nyo?? hehehe...

...presenting my Patay na Bata Collection...

bong a.k.a. gigolong salve

mark a.k.a white rabbit

eric a.k.a SPO4

jay a.k.a crinkles

michael a.k.a. bite size

erryl a.k.a. small wonder

randy a.k.a. pooh (fourth place)

wendell a.k.a. tagay boy (third place)

george a.k.a. vaklah (second place)

stefhen a.k.a. black rabbit (big winner)

Friday, June 09, 2006

after two years

...after two years of being a loyal globe subscriber... ngyn lng ako nakatanggap ng billing statement ko!!! nyahahahahaha!!!! ilang bses ko na pnaulit-ulit ang address ko pro hndi ko nttnggap ang billing ko... pro yng gentxt card ko ntanggap ko nmn... hmmm... galing noh?? la lng... share ko lng... nakakatuwa lng kc na may ntanggap akong mail from globe!!!!

Sunday, June 04, 2006

lakas trip to!! ABS-CBN invasion!!!


... im so tired up to now... kakauwi lng halos nmen ni reese galing sa abs-cbn(salamat kay george)... we watched ASAP '06 and The Buzz.... nyahahahahaha!!! lakas ng trip nmen noh??? nakakapagod pro nakakatuwa... lalo na kng mkikita mo itsura ni reese when she saw sam milby and piolo pascual... pra syang nkakita ng multo... natulala ang lola mo!!! hehehe... mraming mababait at very approachable... may iba nmn, ay naku super suplado at suplada!!! anyway, share ko lng yung ibang pix ni reese with some ABS-CBN talents....

reese ksama ang mga host ng new morning show ng abs, ang MUP...

reese with the 14 teen housemates...

the boys of ASAP '06...

reese with the other ABS-CBN artist...

reese with ms. kris aquino... she's pretty tlaga...

the champions and PBB teens...

mga iba pang performers...

Thursday, June 01, 2006

cute angels

...this is actually a forwarded email... e ang cute kya post ko d2...