First Time

Singers?!?

2008-03-18T21:47:00.007-08:00

videos that would brighten up your gloomy day... enjoy watching!

blog blog ulit!!

2008-01-19T15:34:00.000-08:00

after more than a year of not posting d2 sa blog ko... eto na ang panimulang entry ko for this year!! enjoy watching, kasi ako super natawa ako sa video na to...

if we fall in love...

2006-12-28T16:50:00.000-08:00

eto nmn ang isa pa sa fave song ko sa ngyn... one, dahil ang ganda nya talaga... nakaka-inlove yung song... hindi nakakasawa... two, OST sya ng koreanovela na kinababaliwan ko ngyn... yung princess hours... syempre may dvd nko nun!! hehehe... here's the music vid of princess hour featuring yung song na "if we fall in love" by yeng constantino and rj jimenez of PDA.

IF WE FALL IN LOVE

there will be no ordinary days for you
if there is someone who cares like I do
you got no reason to be sad anymore
I'm always dreaded with a smile
with just one glimpse of you

you don't have to search no more
coz I am someone who
will love you for sure, so..

if we fall in love
maybe we'll sing this song as one
if we fall in love
we can write a better song than this
if we fall in love
we will have this melody in our heads
if we fall in love
any where with you would be a better place..

you can watch sad movies in a different light
coz I'll be right there beside you
huggin’ you so tight (oh so tight)
your hands will never feel
so cold and empty again
coz I will keep on holding on and
won't let go(never let you go)

you don't have to search no more
coz I am someone who
will love you for sure, so..

if we fall in love
maybe we'll sing this song as one
if we fall in love
we can write a better song than this
if we fall in love
we will have this melody in our heads
if we fall in love
any where with you would be a better place..

feel so good when you're around
one smile from you
make my day just so bright

someday... someone's gonna love me!

2006-12-28T16:22:00.000-08:00

the song "someday' by nina is one of my current fave song... u may ask why.... well, aside from the fact na mapapaiyak ka nya at ok ang melody nya... tagos e! nakakarelate ako ng sobra... kanta ko nga sya e... share ko lng yung video and lyrics... you'll enjoy this... Ü

SOMEDAY

Someday, you'll gonna realize
One day, you'll see this through my eyes
But then I won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if I can't
I know you don't really see my worth
You think you're the last guy on earth
Well, I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long, won't take long
CHORUS
'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday
But now, I know you can tell
I'm down and I'm not doin' well
But one day, these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry sweet goodbye
CHORUS
'Cause someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place, woh
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, I know someone's gonna be there
Someday, someone's gonna love me
The way I wanted you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day, I'll forget about you
You'll see, I won't even miss you
Someday, someday
Ahh yeah yeah

a sad christmas

2006-12-21T19:56:00.000-08:00

... antgal ko n pla hindi nkkpagpost d2 sa blog ko... sobrang busy kc... dami gngwa sa office... andming inaackaso... few days n lng christmas na... and honestly, dko sya ma-feel msyado... maybe because di n kc ako bata... pro feeling ko kc pag christmas dpat happy lahat... unfortunately ako hindi gnun ka-happy.... la lng... prang nkkdepress ang christmas na darating... ang daming iniisip at daming nkakapagpalungkot sa akin e... hhhaayyyy!!! share ko lng...

it started with a kiss

2006-10-11T18:52:00.000-08:00

...antgal na since last akong mag post d2... dmi kc gngwa e... anyway, last month ko pa gus2 ipost itong koreanovela na to e... natpos ko na buong series first week of September pa lng... at hanggan ngyn, kninikilig pa rin ako pag nkkita ko... khet medyo nakakatawa ang english subtitle nya ok lng... nakakatuwa yng story nya... most of the time matatawa ka.. pro pag dting ng nung romantic side ng story, mapapa "hhaaayyy!!!" ka na lng... sa sobrang tuwa ko sa kanya, dnownload ko pa yng mp3 ng "say you love me"... hehehe... every saturday at sunday, 11:30AM pinapanood ko pa rin to sa ABS-CBN... syempre, pra mas feel pag tagalog db?? lagi rin akong ng bbrowse sa www.dailymotion.com tpos search ko it started with a kiss... ayun, mapapanood nyo ang mga episodes nya with english subtitles na matitino...

... anyway, it started with a kiss is about a girl named Yuan Xiang Qin (a.k.a. Jeannie), makulit ng girl na galing sa class ... meaning mahina ang utak... pro lakas nmn ng fighting spirit nya... nagstart yung story sa part na magbbgay sya ng love letter dun kay Jiang Zhi Shu (a.k.a. Michael) na minahal nya since first year nya sa highschool... si Jiang Zhi Shu nmn ay galing sa class A, super genius sya, IQ is 200... d tnggap ni Jiang Zhi Shu ang letter nya sbe nya ayaw daw nya sa mga babaeng wlang utak, "i do not date stupid girls!" ang sbe nya.... hehehe... brutal! after that ordeal sa school, umuwi na sya sa bagong bahay nila... naglilipat cla ng dadi nya... dadi lng nya ang gmawa ng lahat sa house na yun... at eto ang weird at nakakatawa sa story na to... nagkaroon ng intensity 2 na earthquake sa lugar nila... e d mega takbo ang bida at friends nya sa labas... akalain mong gumuho ang buong bahay nila... nyahahaha!!! pinalabas sa TV yung nangyari kya nmn yng highschool friend ng dadi nya e napanood yun at pinunthan cla... nakilala cla sa buong story as Uncle and Auntie Li... inalok nilang dun na manirahan cna Yuan Xiang Qin sa kanila... eto na, nung lilipat na cla, tnwag ni Uncle ang anak nya... klala daw kc nun c Yuan Xiang Qin, kya pla... ang panganay nilang anak e c Jiang Zhi Shu...

... d2 na nagsimula ang makulit na buhay nilang dalawa... tuwang tuwa c Auntie kay Yuan Xiang Qin at gngawa ang lahat pra maging malapit sya kay Jiang Zhi Shu.... umaga hapon gabe kulitan to the max... at syempre kng lagi kyong magkasama mdali tlagang magkakadevelopan db? napakasweet ni Zhi Shu khet ayaw nyang pahalata...may part ng story na may dumating na pretty girl sa eksena.... yn na yng isang conflict sa story....

...daming kilig moments sa story... simple story pro kakakilig sya... at very funny cla... bsta, go watch nyo to... actually, 2 times ko na sya napanood... at plano ko pang panoorin ulet.... hehehe.. adik!!

the dead are talking... and she is listening!

2006-09-09T01:00:00.000-08:00

last week, i finished watching the first season of "ghost whisperer"... pag nakikita ko sya sa studio 23, dko tntpos panoorin kc kla ko scary sya... pro last week, bmili ako dvd nya at promise ilang araw akong d nkatulog ng maayos... hindi dahil ntkot ako, pnanood ko kc sya pagdting ko from the office... lagi ko cnsbe, 1 episode lng panonoorin ko... imagine, dating ako ng bahay ng mga 10:30 ng umaga... mttpos akong manood ng 5 or 6pm, tpos sleep nko... maggcng ako ng 8pm, simula nnmn ako... mttpos ako ng 11:30 then idlip kc 12:00 ggising na dpat ako pra mag-ayos papasok sa work... hehehe... ilang araw ko sya pinanood...

....may mga episodes na scary yng mga ghost na nagpapakita sa kanya... pro lahat ng episodes, iniyakan ko... nyahahahaha!!! korek, sobrang babaw ng luha ko!! pro nakakaiyak tlga sya e... lalo na yng part na nagpapaalam na yng dead sa naiwan nila, tpos cross-over na cla... season 2 na ang ghost whisperer... i can't wait for season 2 to end, pra may dvd na!!! basta, if i were you watch na lng kyo ng ghost whisperer!!

candy-ish

2006-09-05T20:37:00.000-08:00

... the start of september is not that good for me... a lot of things happen that makes me so sad... isa na dun is yng article sa candy mag for september... it made me sad kc i know it will be about the incident... pro in a way, it made me smile kc it was for my cousin... anyway, i was told by my cousins na there's an article regarding Richard sa candy mag, page 36.... the one with gerald anderson on the cover... bumili agad ako ng candy mag to check anong article yn... i was so sad after reading it (actually, i almost cried while reading it)... when i open the mag, punta agad ako sa page 36... i saw a pix of my cousin pti family pix nila nina tita bay... ang gwapo tlaga ng pinsan ko! kaye and richmond were interviewed regarding what happen that day (february 12, 2006)... while reading it, nagblik sken what happen that day... how my tito called me and he was crying telling me that Richard is already dead, that he was shot by some carnappers... i can even imagine what happen khet wla ako sa scene, sa mga kwento ng witness at ng cousin ko... i remembered seeing him lying sa morgue... i never thought na magkakaron ako lakas ng loob na pumasok sa morgue... kla ko sa CSI ko lng mkkta yng mga gnung scene, yng nkahiga yng patay at nakabukas... when i saw him sa morgue, d nko nkalapit ng husto sa kanya... dko lam ano nararamdaman ko during that time... d ako makapaniwala na c Richard yng nakikita kong nakahiga dun, lifeless!! i never would have imagine na mggng gnun kabrutal ang pagkamatay ng kahit cno sa family nmen... prang it't not fair!! Richard is the sweetest cousin i have, an i'm not saying this coz he's dead na... that's the truth!! Never nakakalimot ng birthday yn... any occasion, he would not miss it... ittxt ka nya... napakakulit na tao nya... he would often tease Reese pag nagkikita cla... he loves his niece so much... I always get a hug and a kiss from him (gosh! i can't believe i'm crying again!) ... he was loved by so many people... just imagine, 3 rooms sa manila mem ang nagmit during his wake just to accomodate the visitors... buong hallway (as in hallway ng first floor) hanggan loob punong puno ng flowers from people who love him... people would line up just to have a glimpse of him... pra syang artista... i was always there sa funeral parlor... day and night... i do not want to leave, that would be the last few days that i get to be with my cousin e...

... because of what happen to him, mas naging closer kme ng mga cousins ko... d kme nahihiyang magsbe ng i love you sa isa't isa... we would find time to go out and chill... before kc ng day na yun, we were already have plans of going out... actually, months na nmeng plan yn... yng gumimik magkakasama... never natuloy because of our busy schedules... pro now, gngwan nmen ng praan pra matuloy... pro sayang, sna ksama nmen sya sa lakad... i miss him so much... nagpost pa nga ako sa www.candymag.com/jawbreaker e... it's a thread dedicated to him... yun lng po... share ko lng pra mabawasan ang lungkot...

kami nAPO muna

2006-09-01T03:21:00.000-08:00

last night reese and I went to eastwood to watch the launching of the album "kami nAPO muna"... it's a tribute to the APO... the show started at around 7:30 PM, and we were there at around 6:30 PM... hehehe, excited! nakakapagod kc we were standing lng... kc no more seats!! pro ok lng kc lapit lng nmen sa stage... nakakatuwa tlga at ang ggaling ng mga performers... the best ang kamikazee.. even reese enjoyed watching kamikazee perform! we were getting bored na with the second batch of performers, pro nabuhayan kme ng dugo (especially reese) when kamikazee was introduced... kakapagod sobra!!! i love the songs of APO and i think bagay sa mga singers yng song na napunta sa kanila... this is one album na you must have talaga!!

what's a meantime girl?

2006-08-12T04:33:00.000-08:00

... i was checking my mail, (trying to erase old emails.. hehehehe!!) and i saw this email from yengabols... i decided to post it here sa blog... y? ewan ko!! cguro kc lahat tyo ay naging meantime girl once... read on!!

She's the one you call when you're bored because she makes you laugh. She's the one you talk to when you're feeling down because she's willing to lend an ear and be a friend. She's not the one you call when you need a date to your company's Christmas party, or to go dancing with on a Saturday night. She's the one you spend time with between girlfriends, before you find "The One". You know, the one who you keep around in the meantime.

She's not one of the guys, not a tomboy, but you don't look at her as a "real" woman, either. She's not bitchy enough, moody enough, or sexy enough to be seen in that light. She's too laid-back, too easily amused by the same things your male buddies are amused by. She's too understanding, too comfortable? She doesn't make you feel nervous or excited the way a "real" woman does. But she's cool, and nice, and funny, and attractive enough that when you're lonely or horny and need intimate female companionship, she'll do just fine. You don't have to wine and dine her because she knows the real you already, and you don't have any facades to keep up, no pretenses to preserve. You're not trying to get anything of substance out of her.

She's not easy, but you know that she cares about you and is attracted to you, and that she'll give you the intimacy you need. And you know you don't have to explain yourself or the situation, that she'll be able to cope with the fact that this isn't the beginning of a relationship or that there's any possibility that you have any real romantic feelings for her. It won't bother her that you'll get up in the morning, put on your pants, say goodbye and go on a date with the woman you've been mooning over for weeks who finally agreed to go out with you. She'll settle for a goodbye hug and a promise to call her and tell her how the date went.

She's just so cool . . . why can't all women be like that?! But deep down, if you really think about it (which you probably don't because to you, the situation between the two of you isn't important enough to merit any real thought), you know that it's really not fair. You know that although she would never say it, it hurts her to know that despite all her good points and all the fun you two have, you don't think she's good enough to spend any real time with. Sure, it's mostly her fault, because she doesn't have to give in to your needs? She could play the hard-to-get bitch like the rest of them do, if she really wanted to. But you and she both know that she probably couldn't pull it off. Maybe she's too short, or a little overweight or has a big birthmark on her forehead, or works at Taco Bell.

Whatever the reason, somehow life has given her a lot of really great qualities but has left out the ones that men want (or think they want) in a woman. So she remains forever the funny friend, the steadfast companion, the secret lover, and you go on searching for your goddess who will somehow be everything you ever wanted in a woman. You'll joke to her that she should be the best man at your wedding, and she'll laugh and make a joke about a smelly rental tux. She doesn't captivate you with her beauty, or open doors with her smile. Mainly she blends in with the crowd. She's safe. She doesn't want to be the center of attention and turn the heads of everyone in the room. But she wants to turn someone's head. She wants to be special to someone, too. We all do. She has feelings. She has a heart. In fact, she probably has a bigger and better heart than any woman you've ever known because she's had A front-row seat to The Mess That Is Your Life, and she likes you anyway.

She obviously sees something worthwhile and redeeming in you because although you've given her nothing, absolutely no reason to still be around, she is. Anyway, yeah. I'm a Meantime Girl. Been one more times than I care to admit. I don't know the reason, really, and at this point I don't even care. I just want to let every guy know who's ever had the good fortune to have a Meantime Girl that we may be a lot of fun, but we cry, too. A lot. And someday we won't be around.

what if you had a universal remote... that controlled your universe?

2006-08-01T23:30:00.000-08:00

... i just love the movie Click by adam sandler... comedy film na mapapaiyak ka... workaholic architect c adam sandler d2... inuuna nya lagi work nya kc gus2 nya mabgyan maganda buhay family nya... pro d nya alam kng gano na nya napapabayaan ang family nya... ang cool kng may remote control kang tulad ng sa click pro syempre may catch yun db? dun nagsimula yng mga nakakalungkot na pangyayari...

...yng mga pangyayari sa present life ni michael newman (adam sandler) na gus2 nyang i-skip, namemorize ng remote... so ang nangyari sa tuwing mae-encounter nya yng ganung scence kusang nagffast forward ang remote... galing noh!!! dun unti-unti nyang na-realize kng ano ang mga namiss nya sa buhay nya...

...may line dun yng wife nya at sya na gustong gusto ko... "will you still love me in the morning?"... "forever and ever, babe"... hehehe... first scene na iniyakan ko is yng nalaman nyang nmtay na pla father nya tpos gus2 nyang bumalik sa time na nangyari yn kaso d nya mgawa kc wla sya nung namatay father nya... bumalik na lng sya sa time na huli nyang nkta ang father nya... nakakaiyak yun!! isang song na very memorable sa movie na to is "linger" by the cranberries... yn ang song nung first kiss ni michael at donna newman at yn dn ang song nung knasal ang panganay nila...

...Click is a very nice movie... very touching yng story... may halong comedy... d nga lng pde sa sobrang bata kc may mga offensive na scence dun... may lesson yng movie... may mga scnece na patol tlaga... at c david hasselhoff, ngyn ko lng ata sya nkta sa gnung role... prang ang tingin ko kc sa kanya sobrang serious na tao e... makulit tlaga!!! ewan ko pro natuwa tlga ako sa film na to... you have to watch it! promise! Ü

why wedding ring should put on the fourth finger??

2006-07-20T00:08:00.000-08:00

Please follow the below step, really god make this a miracle (this is from a Chinese excerpt)

Firstly, show your palm, centre finger bend and put together back to back. Secondly, the rest 4 fingers tips to tips. Games begin, follow the below arrangement, 5 finger but only 1 pair can split.

Try to open your thumb, the thumb represent parents, it can be open because all human does go thru sick and dead. Which are our parents will leave us one day Please close up your thumb, then open your second finger, the finger represent brothers and sisters, they do have their own family which is too they will leave us too Now close up your second finger, open up your little finer, this represent your children. Sooner or later they too will leave us for they got they own living to live.

Nevertheless, close up your little finer, try to open your fourth finger which we put our wedding ring; you will be surprise to find that it cannot be open at all. Because it represent husband and wife, this whole life you will be attach to each other.

Real love will stick together ever and forever.

Thumb represents parents
Second finger represent brothers & sisters
Centre finger represent own self
Fourth finger represent your partner
Last finger represent your children

the L word

2006-07-18T21:11:00.000-08:00

... i love to watch my TV series like smallville and CSI... one TV series na pinagkakaabalahan ko ngyn is yng "the L word"... very interesting and L word... about sya sa lesbians... love... lust... lahat na yta ng L word na maiisip mo... at first sbe ko puro kahalayan yun... pro may story sya... may puso... pro syempre hindi mawawala ang mga rated R na scenes... hehehehe... nakakatuwa kc you get to know them better once napanood mo ang L word... mdming questions about being gay/lesbian ang mssgot sa series na ito... I am not a lesbian pro na-appreciate ko yng L word... promise! I like the character of Katherine Moennig... Her name is Shane McCutheon, hairdresser sya at ang "crush ng bayan" ng grupo... "playgirl" ang image nya... ang cute!!! hehehe... la lng...

visit: http://www.thelwordonline.com for more info regarding this series.

28 ways to make a girl smile

2006-07-09T00:45:00.000-08:00

...i got this off my bro's blog sa friendster... i think guys should read this... especially guys who are not into mushy things... these are sweet simple things that can make your girl happy... Ü sweet is different from being mushy nmn e... hehehehe...
[1] tell her she is Beautiful. Not hot or fine.
[2] hold her hand at ANY moment even if it is just for a second.
[3] Kiss her on the forehead
[4] leave her voice messages to wake up to.
[5] ALWAYS tell her you love her at any & and all times.
[6] when she is upset, hold her tight & tell her how much she means to you.
[7] recognize the small things... they usually mean the most.
[8] call her Sweetie or BABY... or any endearing aliases.
[9] Serenade her no matter how horrible your voice is.
[10] pick her over all the OTHER girls you hang out with.
[11] write her notes. (she loves them)
[12] introduce her to family & friends as your girlfriend.
[13] play with her hair.
[14] pick her up, tickle her, & play WRESTLE with her.
[15] sit in the park & just TALK to her.
[16] tell her funny jokes, tell her stupid jokes, just tell her jokes.
[17] throw pebbles at her window in the middle of the night just because you missed her.
[18] let her fall asleep in your arms
[19] carve your names into a TREE.
[20] if she's mad, Kiss her. if she isn't, still kiss her.
[21] give her piggyback rides.
[22] bring her flowers just because
[23] treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone
[24] look her in the eyes & Smile
[25] let her take as many pictures as she wants
[26] SLOW DANCE with her, even if there isn't any music playing
[27] KISS HER IN THE RAIN
[28] if you're in love with her tell her

thanks jong!

girls, you have to read this!

2006-07-03T09:39:00.000-08:00

... got this from our yahoo group, nkakaaliw lng sya... dko lam kng bitter-bitteran ang drama o pa-strong ang effect... bgay to sa mga iniwan o sa mga sawi sa pag-ibig na girls... nyahahaha!!! read on...

Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin. Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang." Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin. Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin. Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo. Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.

Ang Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala. Kaibigan kuno hanggang pumorma na. Tapos pag nahulog ka na, ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila. Pero dapat walang iiyak at smile lang tayo. Punyeta, anong silbi ng karma? I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talaga ang magaganda! Hindi bagay sa tanga!" Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin. Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa? Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin! Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong, "Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!" Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang magagalit ng husto. Kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kayo, diba? Kaya for the last time yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin kita!"

Girls, talo daw tayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo? Sige, pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad. Pag iniwan tayo? Ok lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, ex ko." Alam niyo sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso." If the one you love doesn't love you back, don't get depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!" You only got one life so live it well., one heart so take good care, one soul so keep it pure.

One boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more! Sayang ganda natin! Pag sinabi sayo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sayo, hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago! Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo ang ganito, "So, pano? Bye na! Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo, NAKAHARANG KA!"

Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an end to a relationship. It's also a beginning of a new one and an end to a living hell called "ex".

this is beautiful... and you will cry

2006-07-02T02:47:00.000-08:00

Sally jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room. She said: "How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?" The surgeon said, "I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it." Sally said, "Why do little children get cancer?Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?" The surgeon asked, "Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nur ses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university." Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good-bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. "Would you like a lock of his hair?" the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally. The mother said, "It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the university for study. He said it might help somebody else. "I said no at first, but Jimmy said, 'Mom, I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom." She went on, "My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could." Sally walked out of Children's mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car. The driv e home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She laid down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep. It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Laying beside her on the bed was a folded letter. The letter said:

Dear Mom,

I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say I LOVE YOU. I will always love you, Mom, even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know. Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good-bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter. I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'Where was He when I needed him?' God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children. Oh, by the way, Mom, no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now. He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm, sure the food will be great. Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore. The cancer is all gone. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me. The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?

Signed with Love from: God, Jesus & Me.

goodbye tita adit...

2006-06-29T04:19:00.000-08:00

... june 23, 2006... friday afternoon... my tito ato called saying that my tita adit was rushed to the hospital... he said, "anak, bmigay na lungs ni tita adit mo... d na mggwan ng praan." Agad-agad nmn akong tumawag sa parents ko at mga kapatid ko... since 4pm to 5pm lng ang visiting hours sa ICU, nagdesisyon kmeng knabukasan na lng ppunta... kinaumagahan, pagsakay nmen ng jeep ppntang EDSA tnawagan ako ulit ni tito ato... bilisan daw nmen dhel 2 oras na lng ang itatagal ni tita adit... silently, nadasal ako na sana maabutan pa nmen c tita adit pra mkapagpaalam kme sa kanya... after an hour, nagtext ako sa tito ko pra sbhng malapit na kme sa Dasma... nagreply sya sken at cnbing wla na c tita adit, twagan ko daw sya... pagkatawag ko sa kanya, umiiyak c tito ato ko... nagflatline na daw c tita, sbe ko cge bblisan n nmen... tnwagan ko nmn tito pops pra alamin ano na nangyari, pnarevive pa daw c tita adit pro ilang oras na lng daw bnbgay... pagdating nmen sa ICU, hndi kme makapasok kc tpos na visiting hours... hnintay nmen dumating ang iba nmeng tita pra makapagpaalam sa doctor... pagkalipas ng ilang minuto, pnayagan n kmeng kausapin c tita adit... isa-isa na kmeng nagpaalam sa kanya... nakakalungkot at very traumatic yng mkita mo mahal mo sa buhay na nakaratay dun, tpos machines na lng at gamot ang bumubuhay sa kanya... hnawakan ko braso ni tita adit, ang lamig na sobra... nagtatalo cla kng sa susunod na magka-arrest c tita adit, dpat pa b nilang iparevive o hayaan na nilang magpahinga c tita? kng ako ttnungin, mahirap maglet go pro kitang kita nmen na nahihirapan c tita adit sa sitwasyon nya... mga 8 ng gabi, pumirma na clang magkakapatid... sa susunod na atakihin c tita, let go na cla... nakakapagod maghintay kc wla tlgang room sa ICU, sa labas lng kme mula hapon hanggan gabi... kya naisipang pumunta sa canteen pra kumain... habang naghihintay, nagkwekwentuhan kme.. nag iiyakan, minsan nagtatawanan... pasado alas-9 na ng gbi kme naghiwa-hiwalay...

...kinabukasan, june 25... nagtext agad ako sa tito ko kng ano na lagay ni tita adit... ok pa c tita, mukhang hinhintay nya ang pagdating ng lola ko... lumipas ang buong maghapon, wala kmeng natanggap ng tawag at text sa tito ko kya nagpasya kmeng matulog... 11:30 PM, kumatok kapatid ko sa kwarto... sbe nya, "ate joi, patay na c tita adit!! sabay sa paglapag ng eroplano nina lola"... nalungkot ako, at tnwagan ko agad c tito ato... sayang, at hindi naabutan ni lola c tita adit... june 26, pumasok ako sa office... bad news agad ang ntanggap ko... umuwi ako agad at nagpalit ng damit pra pumunta sa manila memorial/funeraria paz sa sucat... konti lng ang tao, umidlip muna ako sa family room... nagising na lng ako sa ingay... at ayun, lumabas at nakipagkwentuhan... at nagkuhanan ng picture...

... june 27, syempre pumasok pa rin ako sa office khet late na kme umuwi... antok na antok ako pro ok lng... diretso uwi ako, bihis lng ulit at ayos ng gamit tpos punta na ulet punerarya... ito na ata pinakamakulit na burol na napuntahan ko... puro kwentuhan, tawanan at pikcher-pikcher kme... prang reunion ang nangyari... dumating ang isa kong lola, humahagulgol sya... niyakap sya ng mga kapatid nya... kmeng magpipinsan ay nkangiti sa eksenang yun... umiral ang kakulitan ko... sbe ko sa mga pinsan ko, "bket d tyo mkigulo bago nila silipin c tita?"... sbay-sbay kmeng tumayo at pinalibutan ang mga oldies... d kme makapagbless kya nmn sbe ko, "ok... group hug!!!"... at sumunod nmn ang mkukulit kong pinsan pti mga tita ko... hehehe... gulat n gulat ang mga oldies, umiiyak cla pro kme hagikgikan ng hagikgikan... at simula nun, kuhanan n ng pictures... tawanan na... kulitan... sigawan (tinatakot kc nina iboy at ryan ang mga kids sa family room)... umuwi kme ng 12 midnight...

...june 28, 2006, hindi ako nkapasok... kc hindi ako nagising sa tamang oras at sumasakit ulo ko... pag gising ko, diretso ligo na kme at bihis... libing nga pla ngyn ni tita... pagdating nmen sa punerarya, andmi ng tao... may nagvivideo pa at photographer... isa-isang tinawag mga kamag-anak pra sa picture taking... prang kasal ang dating! syempre d nwala ang kulitan nmeng lahat... nawala lang ang kakulitan nung nagsisimula na ang mass pra kay tita... puro hikbi at pag-iyak na mririnig mo... lalo na nung inihatid nmen sa chapel ang coffin ni tita pra sa cremation.... dito ko naramdaman ang sobrang lungkot... pti c reese, iyak ng iyak... humagulgol ang lahat ng ipinasok na sa crematory area c tita adit... mririnig mo ang sigawan ng mga lola at mga tita ko.. pti mga pinsan at pamangkin ko... ilang oras dn kmeng naghihintay, dhel sa inip nagpikcher-pikcher ulet kme at nagkulitan... ilang minuto p lng ang nakakalipas, niyaya ako ng pinsan ko na tgnan c tita... pumasok kme sa crematory area at bnuksan nila ng konti yng "oven"... kita ko c tita, buto na lng... nagbabaga pa nga yng ribs nya... lumabas na kme pagkatpos ng ilang minuto.. pagkatpos ng ilang oras, tnwag n kme kc tpos na... kta nmeng abo na c tita at pumuputok-putok pa... ilang minuto na lng at tpos na, i-ggrind pa daw kc yun e... makalipas ilang minuto, pagbukas ng bintana ng crematory area, sabay buhos ng malakas na ulan (pti sa chicago bumuhos dn ulan)... natuwa kme, yn kc ang gus2 ni tita adit... ang umulan pra daw malamig... after mkuha ang abo, dumiretso na kme sa max's pra magdinner...

... nakakalungkot ng sobra... sa taong ito, 3 na namamatay sa amin... late last year, namatay c dadang... january, namatay c tito ali... february, nawala sa amin c richard... at itong june, c tita adit nmn... nalungkot ako kc hndi ko man lng nksama ng matagal c tita adit nitong taon na ito... d kc natuloy yng pagbisita nmen sa kanya... nakakalungkot, napuntahan ko sya nung time na hindi ko na sya makausap... pro lamko nmn na masaya na sya ksama lolo ko at c richard... atleast ngyn, wla na syang mararamdamang pain... Tita adit, mamimiss ko yng champorado mo... Ü we love you tita adit....

wanna hug?

2006-06-25T05:36:00.000-08:00

kapuso discovery

2006-06-18T15:25:00.000-08:00

i think it's pretty obvious na i'm a certified kapamilya... i have nothing against the kapuso network, pro i saw this video sa yahoo group nmen and promise, natawa ako sobra.... nkakatawa kc yng lyrics nya, d best!! at ang sayaw, bagay ng bagay sa kanta... nyahahahahaha!!! eto at share ko video at lyrics... wag nyo pigilan ang tawa ha!! eto ang site just incase d nyo mview d2... http://www.youtube.com/v/leW9nn8ZCAM

keys me (kiss me by sixpence none the richer)

keys me... beat it the verdict valeey...
nightlee... v-side the green green grass
swing swing, swing the spinny stef
you vur the shoez
and i will wear the dress
ohhh... keys me
v-neat d milke twalay
leeeeeep me... al-out the moonlit floor
leaf you open hand... strike entebend
end make d parflays dance
sylvimousse is barkley
so keys me...

keys me...
down by da flow can 3 how..
twin vee of funne hungee tay
bring bring, bing yo flower head
will take dachay make on your father's melt
ohhh... keys me...
v-neat d milke twalay
tixt me.. al-out the moonlit floor
leaf your open hand
strike entebend end make d parflays dance
sylvimousse is barkley
so keys me...

ohhh... keys me...
v-neat d milke twalay
leeeeeep me... al-out the moonlit floor
leaf you open hand
strike entebend.. end make d parflays dance
sylvimousse is barkley
so keys me
so keys me...
so keys me...
so keys me.

ouch!!

2006-06-17T21:04:00.000-08:00

pain pain
go away

i am not very good in expressing myself lalo na sa pagsusulat... like what my bro said: wla akong gift pagdting sa journalism... anyway, i still want to share my thoughts... hehehe...

it's been quite a while now since i felt so happy... yng tipong khet may problems ka, nraramdaman mong masaya ka... minsan naiisip ko, tama kya mga decisions na nagawa o gngwa ko? will it lessen the pain that i am feeling right now or will it will make things worst? my family has no idea what im going through right now... my friends thinks that i am doing ok, but i am not. i guess, im just good in hiding those emotions to myself... people sees me as a jolly person... prang wlang problems... always smiling... always laughing... ang di nila alam, yn ang way ko pra makalimutan yng nraramdaman ko... minsan, nag-iisip ako... am i a bad person pra ma-experience ko lahat lahat ng pinagdadaanan ko? nakakarma ba ako? pro bket? ano bang gnwa ko? i just want to make things clear... this is not about my ex and me... i already accepted our fate... we can never be one no matter how hard we try... we're just not meant to be... this is about reese and all the other complications in life... i am not sure if i am doing the right thing pra kay reese... i am not sure if i would be a good mommy kay reese o kng mabbgyan ko sya ng magandang future... i am not sure kng tama yng decision ko na ipakilala at ilapit pa c reese sa daddy nya... what can i do? she will never be his priority... how can i tell her the truth about her daddy? at pano ko ssbhn sa family ko lahat-lahat?

i hate this feeling.... i need a break... i need to be alone... sna khet one day lng, mawala lahat ng alalahanin ko sa buhay... minsan gus2 ko matulog na lng ng 24 hours pra lng mapahinga isip ko... how i wish this pain will go away soon...

SPO2 Cobra...

2006-06-15T23:43:00.000-08:00

where are you
for my cousin richard

...everytime i hear this song it reminds me of my cousin Richard... maybe because this is his favorite song before he left us... it's been 4 months but i still cannot accept the way he died.. so brutal... i know he's watching over us from heaven... i love you so much Richard... i miss you so so much...

[Justin Roman *spoken]
I know you're out there baby
Somewhere...
[Justin]
There's someone out there for me
(I know there's somebody out there)
I know she's waiting so patiently
Can you tell me her name?
(Won't somebody tell me her name?)
*This life long search is gon' drive me insane
How does she laugh, how does she cry?
What's the colour of her eyes?
Does she even realize I'm here?
Where is she, where is she, where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she, who is she?
Who's gonna complete my world?
Where is she, where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she, who is she?
Who's gonna complete my world?
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da
Da da da da da da da
Where are you?
[Natalie]
I'm starin' out at the sky
(I see you baby)
Praying that he will walk in my life
Where is the man of my dreams?
(I'm right here) Yeah, yeah
I'll wait forever, how silly it seems
How does he laugh, how does he cry?
What's the colour of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
Where is he, where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?
Where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautiful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?
La la la la la la la
La la la la la
La la la la la la la
Where are you?
[Justin]
There's someone out there for me
(There's someone out there for me)
I know she's waiting so patiently
(So patient)
Can you tell me her name?
(Can you tell me his name?)
This life long search is gon' drive me insane
(That's right)
[Natalie]
How does he laugh, how does he cry?
What's the colour of his eyes?
Does he even realize I'm here?
[Justin]
Where is she, where is she, where is she?
Where is this beautiful girl?
Who is she, who is she?
Who's gonna completely my world?
[Natalie]
Where is he, where is he, where is he?
Where is this beautful guy?
Who is he, who is he?
Who's gonna take me so high?
[Together]
La la la la la la la
La la la la la
La la la la la la la
(I know you're out there)
La la la la la la la
La la la la la
La la la la la la la
Where are you?
[Justin*Spoken*]
I'm gonna look all over the world baby
'Cause I know you're out there
And I know it might sound crazy
But I think I love you
[Together]
La la la la la la la
La la la la la
La la la la la la la
(Where are you?)

PBC (patay na bata collection)

2006-06-12T15:52:00.000-08:00

... ano ba ang ibig sbhin ng PBC??? pra ba itong PBB as in Pinoy Big Brother??? nope!!!! PBC stands for Patay na Bata Collection... mga pikcher ng mga officemates kong ntutulog while on duty... pde ring pikcher na ntutulog kng saan saan... sayang at hindi lahat ng mga members ng team raptors ay nakuhanan ng moments nila... enewei, eto ang ibang stolen moments ng team ko... kyo, cno ang big 4 nyo?? hehehe...

...presenting my Patay na Bata Collection...

bong a.k.a. gigolong salve

mark a.k.a white rabbit

eric a.k.a SPO4

jay a.k.a crinkles

michael a.k.a. bite size

erryl a.k.a. small wonder

randy a.k.a. pooh (fourth place)

wendell a.k.a. tagay boy (third place)

george a.k.a. vaklah (second place)

stefhen a.k.a. black rabbit (big winner)

after two years

2006-06-09T11:49:00.000-08:00

...after two years of being a loyal globe subscriber... ngyn lng ako nakatanggap ng billing statement ko!!! nyahahahahaha!!!! ilang bses ko na pnaulit-ulit ang address ko pro hndi ko nttnggap ang billing ko... pro yng gentxt card ko ntanggap ko nmn... hmmm... galing noh?? la lng... share ko lng... nakakatuwa lng kc na may ntanggap akong mail from globe!!!!

lakas trip to!! ABS-CBN invasion!!!

2006-06-04T04:28:00.000-08:00

... im so tired up to now... kakauwi lng halos nmen ni reese galing sa abs-cbn(salamat kay george)... we watched ASAP '06 and The Buzz.... nyahahahahaha!!! lakas ng trip nmen noh??? nakakapagod pro nakakatuwa... lalo na kng mkikita mo itsura ni reese when she saw sam milby and piolo pascual... pra syang nkakita ng multo... natulala ang lola mo!!! hehehe... mraming mababait at very approachable... may iba nmn, ay naku super suplado at suplada!!! anyway, share ko lng yung ibang pix ni reese with some ABS-CBN talents....

reese ksama ang mga host ng new morning show ng abs, ang MUP...

reese with the 14 teen housemates...

the boys of ASAP '06...

reese with the other ABS-CBN artist...

reese with ms. kris aquino... she's pretty tlaga...

the champions and PBB teens...

mga iba pang performers...

cute angels

2006-06-01T20:04:00.000-08:00

...this is actually a forwarded email... e ang cute kya post ko d2...