candy-ish

... the start of september is not that good for me... a lot of things happen that makes me so sad... isa na dun is yng article sa candy mag for september... it made me sad kc i know it will be about the incident... pro in a way, it made me smile kc it was for my cousin... anyway, i was told by my cousins na there's an article regarding Richard sa candy mag, page 36.... the one with gerald anderson on the cover... bumili agad ako ng candy mag to check anong article yn... i was so sad after reading it (actually, i almost cried while reading it)... when i open the mag, punta agad ako sa page 36... i saw a pix of my cousin pti family pix nila nina tita bay... ang gwapo tlaga ng pinsan ko! kaye and richmond were interviewed regarding what happen that day (february 12, 2006)... while reading it, nagblik sken what happen that day... how my tito called me and he was crying telling me that Richard is already dead, that he was shot by some carnappers... i can even imagine what happen khet wla ako sa scene, sa mga kwento ng witness at ng cousin ko... i remembered seeing him lying sa morgue... i never thought na magkakaron ako lakas ng loob na pumasok sa morgue... kla ko sa CSI ko lng mkkta yng mga gnung scene, yng nkahiga yng patay at nakabukas... when i saw him sa morgue, d nko nkalapit ng husto sa kanya... dko lam ano nararamdaman ko during that time... d ako makapaniwala na c Richard yng nakikita kong nakahiga dun, lifeless!! i never would have imagine na mggng gnun kabrutal ang pagkamatay ng kahit cno sa family nmen... prang it't not fair!! Richard is the sweetest cousin i have, an i'm not saying this coz he's dead na... that's the truth!! Never nakakalimot ng birthday yn... any occasion, he would not miss it... ittxt ka nya... napakakulit na tao nya... he would often tease Reese pag nagkikita cla... he loves his niece so much... I always get a hug and a kiss from him (gosh! i can't believe i'm crying again!) ... he was loved by so many people... just imagine, 3 rooms sa manila mem ang nagmit during his wake just to accomodate the visitors... buong hallway (as in hallway ng first floor) hanggan loob punong puno ng flowers from people who love him... people would line up just to have a glimpse of him... pra syang artista... i was always there sa funeral parlor... day and night... i do not want to leave, that would be the last few days that i get to be with my cousin e...

... because of what happen to him, mas naging closer kme ng mga cousins ko... d kme nahihiyang magsbe ng i love you sa isa't isa... we would find time to go out and chill... before kc ng day na yun, we were already have plans of going out... actually, months na nmeng plan yn... yng gumimik magkakasama... never natuloy because of our busy schedules... pro now, gngwan nmen ng praan pra matuloy... pro sayang, sna ksama nmen sya sa lakad... i miss him so much... nagpost pa nga ako sa www.candymag.com/jawbreaker e... it's a thread dedicated to him... yun lng po... share ko lng pra mabawasan ang lungkot...